Friday, August 6, 2010

Airplane,School, and relationships

Bryan left this smorning. I miss him really bad. I love my brother and I hate that he had to go to Indiana. I dont think he loves me. the brotherly sisterly Love has turned into hate... With a passion. He wont even say hi to me. Every now and then he will talk to me bout random things but I hate that he wants to move away. I dont know weather to fight to keep him with me, Considering he is the last blood relative I know, or just let him go and be on my own.

Its hard when you have nobody.School is gonna suck. I am so scared. I shouldnt be but it is so big. So many ppl. I mean how am I gonna find my classes? I have trouble making friends. My brother is my words. He is the funny and i am the... not so funny. I hate this. I wont have a cell phone so I wont be able to talk to any of my real friends. Jeremy is probably gonna leave me cauz I am gonna be so bussy with school I am not really gonna have time to talk to him. I hate the fact my parents moved me here.

Kindell likes her school. I bet she has millions of guys all over her. She is new and thats what every guy wants. The new and beautiful. I guess that is just her tho. I wonder if me and her will still be close... or if she will be 2 into her new friends. the only good thing about moving is my big room. green and black. Big... But alot of times i sit in it alone. Its my thinking spot. I hate when my siblings come and just walk in. My lock broke.

Jeremy is coming tomorrow. we are going shopping. Maybe we will find some really cute clothes. I can dress him up:) lol I want too lol. I wonder if he will let me. Like having my own barbie again lol. Exept he dresses himself. I pick the clothes lol. Like that is really gonna happen lol.

This year is gonna be tuff. Jeremy is gonna think we are drifting apart, when we really are not. Just school. No fon3. no friends. It is gonna be my hardest year. I actually found my true love, and I have to be so far away from him. I am gonna try to make this work. I LOVE HIM SO SO SO SO SO MUCH. I just hope he really feels the same way.

Mom said that true love waits. If this year... We breakup and end up not talking or something... Well maybe we are not ment to be. Maybe he has someone prettier, perfect waiting for him. I hope that is not the case. I mean I know if me and him breakup. I am gonna be a walking dead doll. Literally. he is perfect for me. I need him, and he has always been the one for me. I will never leave him.

Mom said that i need to get my flirty face out. try to find a guy closer here. But seriously. Walking down the hall yesterday... All them boys were ugly. I mean so... imature. Not my type. I am lucky to have a sexy man, who loves me back. I dont need or want to look for another guy. Plus I made a promise. NO GUYS. Cant talk to them. I mean if he talks to me then I will talk back. not gonna be rude. But if he gets a little 2 friendly. I will get the bitch out. There will be some ass whopping. lol

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